
There was a looming feeling that my life was missing something. There is a constant subconscious yearning that calls me; pulling at my shirt tail as I cross main street. The feeling is apparent when the wind carries south that cold Northern air. It is the same bitter wind thats has nipped the nose of known and unknown men that attempted to explore the flat, rolling expanse that is the Labrador Peninsula. It carries with it the harsh memories from days gone by; of hardened men who broke in the seemingly never ending craggy landscape.
In a sense it is serenity, dotted with small towns that disrupt the still, yet dynamic boreal landscape. Labrador is not just a region, a part of Newfoundland or another world class fishing destination. It is much, much more than that. The culture, history and people of Labrador, which was destined to be part of the french speaking Quebec; has been engrained in Canadian history. Labrador is not just the forgotten sibling of Newfoundland, but a functioning stand alone entity.

I find it hard to fully understand and take in exactly what being in the wilderness feels like, until I am far away in my home province. Maybe it is just me, but the urge to return is often overwhelming. It overcomes me, forcing me to take action; whether that be flying north, sauntering through Nova Scotian woods or sitting here allowing nostalgia to guide my mind. Something is to be said about being 100 miles from nowhere, and whether it is a sense of secludedness that I thrive on; or the fact that spending time in Labrador allows me to be with like minded people. In a world of opportunities, this place will always allow me to live the life I dream of.
Well Chris this is the very best you have been willing to share! It is hard to discribe the deep feelings that comes with the knowledge of having explored Labrador and not understanding at the time it was about yourself! The cold spray of water as you cross a lake with your precious cargo backs to the wind and rain and in your face rekindles the spark that makes you feel alive! Thanks!
ReplyDeleteMuch Thanks, Perry. I am sure you know the feeling all too well! I hope to see you next summer.
DeleteBeautifully written Chris! I feel the same way about Ilaluktutiak (Cambridge Bay), Nunavut. I love Nova Scotia, and am thrilled to once again be living here, but there are times when I virtually ache with missing life in the arctic. It truly became home for me. Your powerful words evokes that sense of longing to once again return to the land, and people that captured my heart. To once again experience rambling across the tundra in company with caribou and musk oxen, as it blooms with vibrant blossoms, the air alive with the songs of birds, geese, and swans — and yes, unfortunately mosquitos as well — under the midnight sun. Or laying back on the snow under a black sky, lit up with the dancing, crackling ribbons of the aurora borealis in the middle of the day. Celebrating the first, all-too-brief glimpse of the sun barely breaching the horizon after being hidden for weeks, knowing that in a few months, the darkness will once again be hidden. Ice-fishing on Grenier Lake; sliding down the snow cliffs at West Arm, jumping across ice-floes on the Northwest Passage, taking the ice-road to the mainland, kayaking at Starvation Cove, and climbing up Mount Pelly, where I once experienced a silence so astounding that the only thing I could hear was the blood rushing through my veins. And then there are the people....friends and acquaintances who always made me feel loved, and welcome, and truly part of the community. Times of shared laughter, dancing, feasting, games, celebrating, as well as sorrow, tears and grieving. They became my family, when I was far away from my own.
ReplyDeleteThank you for bringing that all back to me.